It’s amazing what a little surrendering does. Last week I decided to give my heart to God. Not just asking him to be my savior, but allowing him to hold my heart- to keep it safe and protected until a man worthy of holding it asks the Father for permission to do so.
In doing this, I’ve struggled a lot. I’ve always been single and I've typically been okay with that fact (or at least I’ve convinced myself so). However, the past few days my heart has been aching more than ever. I’m not exactly sure why. I’ve tried to do the math, and I can’t exactly come up with an equation. Which maybe that’s a good thing. Sometimes it’s okay to not understand and just rely on God.
All I know, is that through this I will grow. Through my commitment to abandon my heart to the Father, I have no control. I am forced to completely trust in Him. Hopefully these overwhelming feelings will fade. I want to be content in my Savior alone. I desire for completeness from Him.
Father, help me to trust in you. Give me peace when I lack understanding. Give me patience as I wait on your perfect timing.
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